It has been a few months, but time feels like slow motion. Nothing has changed over these past few months. But I guess it wouldn’t change if you keep doing the same thing over and over – just wake up on the couch with a minor hangover (on a Tuesday… and a Wednesday, and Thursday…Ok almost everyday for a few months), try to pull it together and be camera ready and get to work (with a few people who obviously haven’t lost anyone and get the grief thing) and put on a show like nothing is or was ever wrong. Don’t get me wrong, it is definitely a gift, but right now it feels like a curse of being one of the “faces” of a new up and coming global tech company. But, I guess I am just a face and not an actual human. All I want is to be happy, successful and make my daddy proud of me…
Allow me to reintroduce myself
Today (It’s only a week late) would have been my dad’s 71st birthday, and 3 years ago he spent it in the hospital. It was the last day that I would see him conscious. I remember getting the phone call from my brother saying that he went to the hospital. Being overly optimistic about everything, I was thinking, Ok, that kinda stinks that he will be in the hospital for his birthday, but he will be ok…
It’s been quite a while.
Allow me to reintroduce myself.
My name is Brittany. I am a Gemini and I enjoy long walks on the beach.
More than that…A tomboy turned beauty queen who learned how to Just B! 6x Fitness Universe Champion and Former Miss United States. A country girl at heart who likes to shine in the bright lights of Vegas. A girl who has been very blessed who (usually) strives to share her blessings. Free-spirited and eclectic. Happy, fun-loving and optimistic, turned depressed, anxious, and suicidal. All those sparkles and light slowly dimmed and dulled….